Sunday, January 08, 2006

Billy

Do you ever wake up some mornings, its drizzling rain outside, the wind is howling and you just cant seem to get the engine started enough to get out of bed?

Today was one of those days for us.... I vaguely remember Evan giving me my morning cuppa and then sliding back into a deep sleep where I had the weirdest dream... my Aunty Hazel had come over to visit and had decided that all my fiction books (and there are a few of them) had to be catalogued and filed away in a huge book shelf that was built into our lounge room. Which I guess is somewhat normal to a degree, however the thing that got me was that when I looked at what she had been doing, the shelves seemed to be stacked full at about 100 feet high!

In telling Evan this when he came back in from feeding up, he said that he too had had a dream last night ( what was in that Chinese takeaway last night??) that he was Greg Norman's driver (?) and he had dropped GN off at a function and ran into our friends, Sue Black and family and was standing there having a great conversation with her. GN came out of his function and tore shreds off Evan because he was busy talking to Sue and not getting GN to his next function.......... Yes, just as weird as my dream.

The weather has done a complete turnaround today and is cold and wet... not that Iam complaining of course. This of course makes it much easier to do what you have to do...

and for me, today has been spending time with Billy and getting him used to being handled and his legs touched. Iam really drawn to him in some way.... and of course I said this to Evan and he denied that he was to ever get attached to another horse again after what we have been through.

How can I explain the feeling of being drawn to him.......

Some horses have very strong and overbearing personalities... they are pushy by nature, they are "frizzy" and highly strung and you just know that you cant get close to them for whatever reasons or whatever hangups they might have. There are 2 here that would fit this persona. Then you have the horses who dont really have a personality... they have been there and done that so many times... they are not interested in anything else but being fed - they will not show anything to anyone for whatever reasons.

We also have a "Greta Garbo" .... "I want to be alone..." who just goes off and does what she wants to do and buggar everyone else.

Then you have the innocents, and naturally when I say that you might be thinking the foals... not necessarily. Most foals keep pretty close to mum and mum keeps pretty close to them. They dont really get a chance to develop into themselves and their personalities until mum starts to loosen the apron strings.

And then you have Billy.

He is an innocent. I know its only early with him but he is so "knowing" for one so young and to lose his mum so young. Now dont get me wrong, we have brought up a poddy before and he became a real handful. But Billy possess something... and I cant put my finger on it. I havent put a photo of him up for awhile because, quite frankly, he is looking pretty yukky. But this little man is such a fighter and I know that his mum and his half sister would be proud of the effort that he is making to get on and to grow up without them.

I think I have fallen in love with the little man.

But Iam not attached. No sirree. No way. Not again.

And of course, Evan is not attached to him.

No way!


lol yeah right!

There is just something about him and when I find out what it is, I will let you know.


Helen.





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