you know, how time demands to march on when we want it to stand still so that we can have some time to think and feel and come to terms with whatever is on our minds. Even though we go through some terrible and tragic times through our lives, day insists on following night and we must get up and dust ourselves off and continue on even though we have no motivation to move on to the next day.
I guess that's how we have been feeling since the passing of Lily. Getting up, breathing, doing the things that we have had to do. However, the other horses still demand to be fed, their water bowls continue to have to be filled up, the dogs still demand dinner and attention and Caramel's preparation still demands Evan's full attention.
I posted something very early on in this blog about "the eyes having it"... Lily knew that her time in this life was short on Wednesday night and I could see that in her eyes. I knew that she might not last the night and she knew that I knew. Lily's eyes were all so knowing, yet she tried with all her heart to beat whatever it was that overcame her. She was a very brave girl. We are both still very sad about losing our girl, still our life here at Massie Lodge continues on even though she has left us.
Shorts has been a little beside herself yet, I observed that she had started to distance herself from Lily in the few days leading up to her passing. Animals are such knowing creatures aren't they? They leave humans way behind.
We have had some good news in amongst the bad - Both Sweetie (Sweet Air) and Libby (Miss Independence) are 15 days positive to their respective stallions (Pure Theatre and DITW). Nanna continues to be a bit of a mystery as to whether she is in foal, however, we should have something more definitive news for her in the next week. Nanna has started teaching Billy to stand on his own two feet (or 4 hooves as the case may be), and has started to teach him some independence at feeding times. We have been giving him his own bowl just away from Nanna, so he learns to eat on his own. More often we are seeing them separated in the paddock, however, I think that when Sweetie comes home with wee Jimmy, they might sort themselves out a bit more and Nanna will become part of the herd, which is how she likes to be rather than on her own.
Sunny, Gracie, Cindy and Joey are all doing well, in fact they are all doing very well - mud notwithstanding! Joey has decided that she likes to get rid of her fly veil at least once a day, a bit like a compulsive game of hide and seek for us humans! Iam sure that I can hear her sniggering when I finally find the bloody thing, covered in mud etc. and I have to wash it and then put it back on her. I do have to mention that young Gracie is looking like she is in foal, lol.
Charlie, Oscar and Throb are also doing very well in their paddock with Oscar needing some sort of fly veil as the flies tend to like him. Now this is easy to say, but to actually get the bloody thing on him is another matter.
Lenny and Jakey are doing well.. and have really come on. I do feel very guilty as I havent really spent much time with them as I had been focusing all my time with Lily...
Caramel is coming on in leaps and bounds and has been wearing a bit in ready for the big day, lol. Evan is wondering who he can contact about Worker's Compensation as it is an on going occurence for those two to have an altercation and for Evan to fall over and/or be dragged across the paddock...... He keeps telling me that it isnt malicious behaviour, rather her acting out of fright! I think I'll leave him to it.
Vera and Trousers will be brought up to be the fulltime mowers tomorrow. Its been a case of having to bring in the big artillery with all the grass around the place, however, Iam not complaining, rather just saying that it now needs the "professionals" to get the job done. They have both flourished down the back in their own paddock. However, it will be nice to see them around the place again.
Zandrea, Queenie, Southern and Eric the Horse are doing really well in the big paddock, with a full dam and nice round bellies on the lot of them.
Tomorrow sees some time off for the humans at a Christmas lunch at Clifton pub and then a Christmas dinner at the local hall... if Evan can move at all after todays battle with Caramel. Ah, to be 25 again! lol
Sod of The Week...
Just when you thought it was safe to put a roast lamb in the over and for it to cook all the way through without the power going off - think again!
Yes Ergon Energy head up the list for SOTW and are very close to winning the Sod of The Year Award for 2005. Sorry, but they are really useless twits and have very lowservice levels comparable to Telstra (which is saying something). Thursday night was a beauty for us with lack of power. The power went out for 3 hours in the afternoon and came on as I arrived home from work (I would like to also add that I had to detour through Clifton from Toowoomba because of the power lines that crashed down onto the road - add on an extra 40 minutes to the trip). By the time I got home at 6.30pm, power had been restored. Evan and I thought that we could settle down to a nice meal and a quiet night. Not to be so. At 7pm the transformer on the pole outside of Leo's (our neighbour) place had blown, so no power at ALL that night. Apparently, according to Ergon Energy the crews came out at 1am to fix the transformer. This was after I had to have a wash in the bathroom sink with the warm water from the Thermos that Evan keeps in such an emergency. Dinner, instead of being a nice piece of veal was a cold cornbeef sammy with some sauce.
This was also followed on Friday by 4 trips of the power (on, off - on, off - you know what I mean). This was enough for me to get riled up and give their customer service people a serve with a demand for Escalation. I have been told that Iam to be contacted by a Customer Relationships Manager on Monday - I cant wait. The person that I spoke to on Friday told us that we should get a back up generator - my comment was, if the electricity supply was more reliable, we wouldnt have to buy a generator that runs on diesel (which is at a premium price!).
Why is it that Customer Service people always say, they "Understand", when in fact they absolutely have no idea whatsoever? This woman kept saying it to me... and the more she said it to me, the more it got my hackles up and made me annoyed. She would never had understood that Evan needed to shower on Thursday as he had been digging a grave for Lily in very hot weather and stank!
Well, time for me to hit the hay and read my book. I am sorry for the lack of postings on my blog in recent times, but I didnt have the heart for it, it just hurt too much ... however, I hope to fix that up now that things are a little more "normal" (whatever that is!).
Helen.